trafihkstopurr

give it to me, stud.

2009-10-25T01:45:00.003+11:00

I'm sorry Blogger, but things just aren't working out.

http://tiqaalias.tumblr.com/

yeaaaa brother, that's where it's at :)

we stuck like glue eh

2009-10-21T20:28:00.003+11:00

There are very little things that I think are sexier than Pin-Up girls.

Like seriously, they are fineeee.

just another one of my secret loves :)

P.S planning on killing the blog, and doing the whole Tumblr thing.

My cousin will love me more if I do hahahha x

so let me walk with you, hold my hand

2009-10-19T03:31:00.003+11:00

You could say that I am a very particular person. I don't mind, honestly :) I'm particular about plenty of things: the length of dresses, the thickness of fringes, the height of a heel and the amount of space I have in my bed at the end of the night. I am very particular indeed. However, above all this insanity, the one thing that drives me absolutely insane is when someone calls me something they shouldn't. See, I don't have one name that I tell everyone, and expect to be called. No, I have more names than I can count =.= So, when I tell someone to call me something, and instead they call me by a name that someone else calls me by, it absolutely shits me. No one other than Amee or K. Yan has the right to call me tiki, and I can't stand it when people who I introduce myself to as Atiqah, call me Fatti (like who do these people think they are?) Please don't call me baby unless you are my baby, and just never ever call me babe, girl or tiqs (ugghh). Despite being expected to be treated like a complete princess all the time, there is only one person who can get away with actually calling me that, hahaha :) I would punch anyone who called me Grinchwoman that wasn't Lizzle, and feel completely uncomfortable with anyone but Boo calling me Gemok. I find it a complete turn on when guys call me Atiqah in the cyber world, yet totally weird when anyone but my family call me that in real life. So after Fatti (to those who I have introduced myself to as that, of course), my most preferred way of being called is Tiqa, and though I remain completely normal when anyone else calls me by that name, I hate it when this one specific guy does because it sounds so sleazy when he does, yet go weak in the knees when another particular guy calls me by it LOL.

As i said, I am very particular :)

So please, call me by what I agreed on when we first met, unless of course there have been prior arrangements hahhahaa.

Sincerely,

me.

distance is nothing

2009-10-16T17:59:00.007+11:00

The love that I have for these two is amazing.

We see each other like once every two years,

and every time it's like we haven't even spent a second apart.

This here, THIS is love.

love feeeeet :)

mijaaaaa !

dirty dirty dirty teeeth LOL

starting to get a little Holy, as we do :)

then things satrted to get a little out of hand when I put on a scarf ...

HAHAHAHHAHA

Yes, yes I do love these two =D

absentmindedly making me want you

2009-10-15T14:56:00.003+11:00

I want to do something completely irrational, crazy and maybe stupid.

Yes, I would like to.

I would like to alot.

i aint never had nobody do me like you

2009-10-08T01:17:00.004+11:00

while in Bali, i learnt of many things: culture, relationships, love, heartbreak, secrets - well basically, the lot :) but something that amazed me the most was how two people could possess the same mannerisms due to the two spending alot of time with one another. Now it's obvious that this is a complete no-brainer, and no, I am not stupid - It's very clear to me that when people spend crazy amounts of time with each other they tend to act and think the same, but what amazed me was that two people i know, who had spent years apart after being together still did such similar things. A cousin of mine has an ex-boyfriend in Bali, and with the two of them being so completely mature, we spent every single day with him, which was nice because he showed us around and was plenty of fun. Things weren't awkward and they didn't avoid each other, but when i wasn't meddling, trying to get the two of them back together, i was sitting in between them to make things well, easier. This of course in the end made things so much more worse because fiza (my cousin) would do something to me, and then sheike ( "shake" - the ex) would do the exact same thing ! This of course resulted into me teasing the two on how they are destined because of their similarities. We were sitting @ a table eating dinner, my left leg crossed over my right and sheikh started trying to kick off my slipper. getting pissed, i switched it over and crossed my right over my left but then fiza started doing the same thing. This just made me laugh instead of get angry, and as i teased the two about how it must've been a game the two played while out on dates, i got told to shut up :( hahaha, not only did they have little things like that in common, but i swear their touch was the same. Now, i know it sounds crazy because despite them doing the same little things, no matter how much time two people spend together they can;t possibly learn to have the same touch, but they did. I'd be lying on the bed reading and sheikh would come up to me and annoy me by tickling my thunder thighs, and after shooing him off, fiza would come and do the same thing. I swear if i didnt look at her, i would have thought it was still Sheikh. The thing that amazes me even more is that the two hadnt even SEEN each other in almost two years and yet they were like two peas in a pod. It's crazy how things dont work out huh ? especially when its for two wonderful people :) it sucks how too many things can happen that change too many things making it impossible for things to go back to how they used to. Humans sure are funny creatures.

in good company

2009-10-08T00:40:00.002+11:00

I fell in love in Bali. I did. Me, terrified of commitment in all forms, fell completely and utterly in love. That's right: While in Bali, I fell in love with Bali :) the place is absolutely surreal. It's crawling with JUST as many tourists as locals, and honestly, fuck New York, Bali is REALLY the city that never sleeps. Clubs go OFF every single night till 4/5 in the morn, and by then, surfers are upupup to catch the morning wave - it's insane. Yes it is completely dangerous if yu travel like an idiot, but when acting wisely, the place is a haven. If yu're one for the parties, yu canNOT retire till yu have been in Bali. It's really something yu must experience for yurself :) Bali def made me see many things like never before.

The fire's in their eyes and their words are really clear

2009-09-27T21:02:00.010+10:00

it's hard being away from family - especially the little ones. when yu're there, they love yu, but when yu come back after a year, yu have to know them all over again because there's no way they remember yu. My nephew and baby cousin are so full of energy, its insane ! one of them was dancing and singing to michael jackson, while the other one hit me everytime MJ said ' beat it '. hahaha, it took me about 10 minutes to get em to know me again :) best spent 10 minutes of my life !

my butch 3 year old nephew.

if yu look closely, he is sitting on my face !

LOL, asshole.

my cousin :)

i love this kid

... okay maybe a little less now =P

pornstar in the making, just like his aunty, yurs truly ;)

baby cousin in the background :) little shit

devil child !

they were bashing the shit out of each other - and me !

How can yu NOT go weak in the knees ?

these little shits are the reason why i up with this ridiculous singaporean weather !

nd I must say, my malay is getting pretty good =P hahah

you take my hand and drag me head first - fearless

2009-09-27T17:23:00.005+10:00

uugghh, for some lame ass reason, when i upload photos, they turn out like mammoth and dont fit on the page properly =/ its soooo weird ! nd hasnt happened before ! *sigggh. so screw my photo post :(

Now, for those wanting to travel to singapore for god knows what reason, here are some pointers:

- if yu dont like heat in even the SLIGHTEST way, dont come here. I was born and bred in a sunburnt country and fuck i can't stand this shit ! i constantly feel light headed :(

- there are perves everywhere ! although there is absolutely no way yu can wear anything BUT shorts and singlets, i suggest that when yu do, prepare yurself to get looked at, whistled at and occasionally molested

- there are inadequate sings everywheeeere ! LOL yest, me & my sister came across

" more shop upstair "

and

" more seatings inside "

god this place makes me laugh

- unless travelling with a snooty, prissy bitch like my older sister, catch public transport ! I can;t say much about singapore as it isnt too great (LOL), but their public transport system is amazing ! ... cabs too are cheap, so knock yurselves out !

- when going out to eat, money isn't a huge problem. I bought AUD5 of food, and couldnt even finish it cause it was so much ! hahaha,shopping however, bring plenty !

- and of course, learn to bargain ! me and ameerah SUCK at it, so we just take whats given to us =P but if yu know how, it's definitely no harm !

hahahha, travel tips on bali and kuala lumpur will soon follow =P

hope yu all are well ! i know i sure am !

xx fatti

home :)

2009-09-25T15:55:00.002+10:00

finally in singapore :) been here less than 24 hours, and already i have: had maccas twice, been molested, told off two guys and insulted some chick on her english - yeap, feels like home !

every sky was your own kind of blue

2009-09-21T18:38:00.003+10:00

to all of my like what ? one reader out there ? hahaha, I apologise greatly for my lack of posts :) not that they're very interesting or anything, LOL. but anyway the past week has been insane due to the last week of ramadhan and eid and just everything. I have a few things i need to do in terms of school work before i leave in THREE days, and just have no time to do them ! I havent even started packing for my month long trip =.= nd have this english speech to do by TONIGHT. but as my "inner procrastinator" - as lizzle would call it - has decided to give me a little visit, his name btw is Aristotle, it had made it impossible to do anything. And to add onto that, Zee (the mother) has decided to chuck a mini eid open hse and so if i wanna get anything done, i shall have to sleep @ about 4 in the morn. Oh well, time spent sleeping is time wasted.

till we meet again, fatti.

right there, in the middle of the parking lot

2009-09-15T21:56:00.003+10:00

some fucking dick mowed my lawn and cut all the fucking dandelions
UGH.

I don't know if life is greater than death, but love was greater than either.

2009-09-14T18:31:00.004+10:00

Nostalgia Blows.

The thirst that my throat has for the boxed Chrysanthemum Tea that Mira used supply our room with can never be quenched, as every instant tom yam noodle packet will forever take me back to the days that I used to consume the delicious bowlfuls that Lamb used to make. My legs constantly long for the comfort of long cotton pyjama pants, as not even Chanel can create something with more beauty. My ears and mouth remain connected through Lovers and Friends and Always Be My Baby, as every time any of these tunes enter my ears, I break out into immediate laughter and a cry of happiness as I remember Lala’s stupid performances and Babri’s company that fateful night we spent at the roundabout. For every time I see She’s the Man playing anywhere, I can hear Begum’s screeches in the background, and if I close my eyes, the image of us sitting through that spider scene about 40 times is as clear as yesterday. Just the mention of pepper spray places an image of Najiah and I’s little stakeout in my room that consisted of her clutching the keyring pepper spray with all her might, and me pathetically holding a long wooden rod, the both of us ready to pounce on the beast at any given moment. Then there’s Izzy. My everyday reminder of how simple life used to be

Nostalgia Blows.

it's not much at all,
but my best year was here.

chuck me a waterfall,
and i will love yu for forevermore.

this time baby, ill be bulletproof

2009-09-12T22:16:00.002+10:00

i love ramadhan
this shit is epic

12 days till singapooore

drive real fast with your eyes closed

2009-09-10T20:55:00.005+10:00

after loosing two consecutive games of jenga PLUS putting up with more stupid made up jenga games,
one of which my brother called 'Jai Ho',
i knocked the friggen wood tower over and left the room.

returning two minutes later, i found this:

my brother is 20

i've got a man with two left feet

2009-09-09T18:52:00.003+10:00

the prettiest pair of ankle killers i will ever semi-own
(they're really my sisters) :D
i want to run away, and get married in them

momma says they look like dog collars.
but what does she know ? HAH

defying gravity

2009-09-08T23:08:00.001+10:00

the pamily :)

i know i'd know an angel if i saw one

2009-09-08T20:11:00.004+10:00

you cannot do this to me.
not after this long.
not after i have come this far...

FIFA 'O9

2009-09-07T22:02:00.005+10:00

yesterday, the siblings, most of my cousins, and i went over to my brothers place to break our fast together while the 'rents did so @ the mosque. due to the fact that they thought we were incapable of feeding ourselves, the mothers packed us up with insane amounts of food =D hahaha, we ate, ate, ate, prayed a little then spent the rest of the night playing tennis and seven player FIFA on abangs PS3 :) being the only girl playing, all the boys fought over who's team i'd go on because clearly it would be the loosing one =.= LOL, there were seven of us altogether, and i got put on the three-man team; we ended up winning two out of three games ! SCOOORE.

you could say that i'm only capable of loving one way.
i don't know how to be in love,
but i can definitely love with all my heart.

my gorgeous cousin :)

and again :)

around the ps3

"what do you find a kitchen ?"
"WOMEN!"
hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahaha

this bitch be pimpin' ;) LOL

i definitely love these people with all my heart.

sunrise

2009-09-07T21:05:00.008+10:00

last monday, the chicas ( well three of them ) et moi, left the house at an ungodly hour ( me personally @ seven =.= ) to be at the city by 730 to watch GUY perform, and get him to sign our CD's :)
lucky for us, on the way, me nd baybee's bus broke down.
but we managed to get there by 750 for the performance :))

us waiting in line @ the shop for guy to come.

lalala, hello guy ;) hahahah

despite the boobs,
he didn't go for me :( HAHHAHAH

after getting the CD's signed, we waited outside till he came :)

nd then finally ! weeeee :)
this was taking shortly after they hooked up !
LOL, SHE WISHES

fully satisfied, we headed off to tiffany's :)

tadaaaah :)
this is the absolute love of my life, by faaar.
okay fine, after amelia hahahha.

lovelovelove

we were there much too early,
everything still wasn't opened yet :(

we got to school eventually...
later that afternoon ? hahahah

my tumtum hurts :( situps make me sore, and burp LOL.

and that's when the elephants and penises started dancing on the ceiling

2009-09-07T08:35:00.006+10:00

LIFE IS BLISS
and summer's a coming -
so take me to a place where the birds sing,
and the sky is blue.
Where the air is fresh,
and the people smile.

just take me to wherever you are,
because that's where i'll always want to be.

2009-09-03T22:21:00.008+10:00

there are two things that not many people know about me

one of them is that i love dandelions, i do.
every morning, i pick one from the grass and blow.
trying every single time to get them all in the air with a single, hard huff.
these magical things excite me to an extent you wouldn't believe.
i want nothing more than to run.
to run in a field of nothing but dandelions.

i love dandelions.

as for the second thing:
i'd tell yu, but then i'd have to kill you :)

she dropped the top of her ferrari, cruise the street

2009-09-03T21:58:00.001+10:00

21 DAYS.
amee and i depart in 21 days.
TWENTY ONE !
I must say, that at this point in time,
the part of my trip that I am looking forward to most
HAS to be: MY TRAVEL DIARY
my obsession with notebooks nd paper
is as crazy as the one with dandelions :)
i cannot wait to fill this with AWESOME shiz.

the front has already been personalised
"the travel adventures of fatti + amee"

day to day stuff,
weather, adventures for the day, travel buddies
(sorry for the shitty pictures,
a photographer I am not. hahahha)

spending log

nd one of them old school envelopes
to keep shiz in =D

ASIA, see yu in twenty one =D

nodding my head like yea, moving my hips like yea

2009-09-02T22:16:00.007+10:00

it's the 12th day of ramadhan,
and routine is just about to settled in.
(do keep in mine that i am so entirely allergic
to any from of long term commitment/routine -
a month is pretty much my cut off point,
so fasting JUST makes the cut).
i'm so completely drained in every imaginable way
- and have been for the past 12 days.
everything i do feels so completely half-arsed.
i don't even feel like i'm eating sincerely.
yes, i know. tragedy.

THIS is what my days are like:
4oo am - awake to eat an uber early breakfast, + pray
5oo am - go back to sleep
8oo am - wake up for school, & attempt to make myself semi presentable in a half hour; i fail more than i succeed.
83o am - try and leave the house, ( this is usually delayed to 845 on 4 out of 5 days =P )
9oo am - run my ass to rollcall before miss cerkases completes the roll.
915 am - begin classes
315 pm - leave concrete jungle/randwick girls and walk up to the junction to catch a bus home
405ish pm - return home to mommas nagging voice, and sleep/do homework/tutor little shit till
545 pm - this is when the fast is broken. we eat, then pray, then eat again.
7oo pm - leave for the mosque to pray taraweh
93o pm - arrive home after a long arse prayer. do more work/read/jack shit
113o pm (at the EARLIEST) - sleep.

and repeaaaaaaat.
as you can see I am getting shit all sleep.
i dont even LIKE sleep, nor find it necessary,
yet i want it for the next 17 hours ++

apologies for the whiney post.
I hope this brightens yur day :

long-time listener, but a first time call

2009-09-01T21:25:00.005+10:00

mama & papa got sucked into some current affair segment
about how V, mother and red bull are bad for you
( like who cares ! )
So anyway, now they're convinced that if any of us at home drink it
we're gunna die.
Hence the banning of the three drinks in the Alias Casa
UGH

but Adam (amee's bf) treated me nd her to some V,
nd so we had to hide it in her cupboard :) LOL

two days later she founf it,
nd schitzed it at us.
EPIC FAIL

me, amee and hames played JENGA !
epic-est game EVER.

*sigh, i need a pair of these in my life

xx, fatti :)

we're chasing vodka with high-fives

2009-08-30T21:44:00.003+10:00

Meet my brother.
If you're not familiar w/ take you down by Chris Brown,
then go and listen to it now because this wont make sense.
for you stupid ones: yes, this IS a joke :)
ENJOY !

a critic and a skeptic, a traitor - i'd trade her in a second

2009-08-27T20:43:00.004+10:00

alors, its the big sisters birthday tomorrow,
nd after school i went to eastgardens to buy her the phone that she wanted
but it was out of stock,
in BOTH places uuggghh.
so I made a card and a little baggy thing

like so,
and placed the $500 dollars innit :)
I'm very proud, because my artistic level is like ZERO,
nd so, turning a plain white envolope into THAT ^
is like a huge accomplishment

getting intoxicated every weekend, he makes my heart go ooh ooh ooh

2009-08-26T17:23:00.011+10:00

it is day 5 of fasting, and i am so
TIRED
only another 25 days to go before adequate amounts of sleep are possible.
*sigh

yesterday the big sister, amee, bought me this audrey book !
hahaha, she txted me the other day during school
saying she bought me present.
I had a feeling it was the book, but didnt wanna get my hopes up.
but then when i got home, BAM ! there it was =D
it is now my most prize posession, wooo.

I am so completely infatuated by her

hahaha, okay now I am off to break my fast and eat this cake i have been drooling over for the past few hours !
YUMYUMYUM

i'm sorry i can't be the right kind of monster for you

2009-08-24T23:16:00.005+10:00

everyone, this is ryan.
or babies as i like to call him :)
he is the best ungay best friend a chica could ask for !
i def love him like a fat kid loves cake.
in fact, i love him like i love kebabs,
hahahah.

we're like a married couple, we are.
he sits on the couch with my head in his lap,
sharing an ipod and complaining about each others choice of song
while he plays with the DS
and i complete my sodukos.
he laughs at me because i have to use white out,
sometimes.

momma even loves him more than she does me :(

babies is props the reason why i hate relationships.
having him around is commitment enough !
hhahhah :)

i want this forever, i swear i can spend whatever on it

2009-08-23T12:37:00.005+10:00

decent clothing
no swearing
constant tiredness

finally, the best part of the year has come (Y) its ramadan, and so we muslims fast :) being a 'holy' month and all, every night is spent praying at the mosque, returning home at a late hour with no time to do school work, then awaking at like 430 to have breakfast as we cant eat for the day T.T practically living at the mosque also means all the shorts and singlets are pushed to the back of the cupboard, and the bearzeroskin clothes come out. UGH, if theres one thing i hate, its having to wear full length pants =.= swearing is not allowed too, because if yu do yur fast SOO doesnt count. + the odd waking/sleeping hours make me TIRED THE WHOLE MONTH THROUGH. you'd think that id be used to it huh ? having fasted for like the past 7 years, but nay. a princess needs her sleep ! but as far as swearing goes, im happy i have to stop doing it. seeing as i swear like trailer trash and have been trying to stop for like YEARS on end, i hope NOT doing it becomes habit and i wont rely on filthy language anymore :)

hahaha, i dont know if as a muslim, im actually allowed to say this, but i dont particularly enjoy fasting. i mean, if there's one thing that everyone knows about me, its that i love eating, and fasting forbids me from doing that ! LOL, nevertheless, it still remains my favourite time of year :) throughout the other 11 months that i spend not fasting, i have little or no power over my body, partly beacuse im lazy as **** (cant swear, LOL), but also because i just tell myself not to bother because eventually i'll give up and fail. but this one month of the whole year, i feel as though i have complete power of my body because i can tell myself to stop eating :) who knew starving was healthy for the mind ? hahahaha but yesyes, fasting makes me feel king =D its also believed that during this sacred month, Allah locks up all the devils, and so the desicions we make are entirely ours, and have no inlfuence from the satan whatsoever. see ? this month gives me power beyond belief ! ahahaha.

but above any other power-influenced reason, my favourite part of fasting is family. i see my cousins and aunties and uncles non stop during the month. we always get together to break our fast, hence eating like pigs and putting on disgraceful amounts of weight :) we pray together, and then try really hard not to gossip or b***h, as that isnt allowed too :) hhahaha, we fail ALOT more often then we succeed, but its fun trying !

as yesterday was the very first day of fastingg, all the fambam got together at aunty shidahs house in beverly hills to eateateat ! it was the first one of the year, so of course it was lovely to do it with the cousinss++ :) before i left the house i told myself to bring the camera so i can show yu pictures of how we usually do things, but didnt remember till i was in the car halfway there =.= after eating then praying then eating again, my other aunty sent me, my brother and two other of cousins to get the stuff to make teh tarik (which is malay for tea pull ?) from her place. on the way there, instead of doing things the PROPER way, my NON-LISCENCED cousin decided to drive as apposed to my completely legal brother T.T ugghh, as i was sitting shotgun, they started cracking jokes about how if we got pulled over, i'd be the one busted and wouldnt be able to get my lisence till im 21. obviously i believed them and shat myslf the whole way. im semi like the youngest ones of my cousins, and so i HATE it when they pull me into their illegal schemes. okay fine, driving wthout a lisence isnt that big a deal, but it was to me last night for the 15 minutes that i was riding shotgun. and its a $400 dollar fine if you get caught !

after returning safely to beverly hills with all limbs attached, we prayed a little more, then like me and 10 of cousins went into the piano room where they had DS tetris wars :) ahahah, after they failed to beat abang imran, half of them left and kak mel brought out the STACK of music sheets. i went through most of them (there was WAY too many !) and picked the songs i wanted her to play. she plays the piano like a friggen prooo, and so needed no practice :) she played while i sang - this was clearly for fun as my voice is as soothing as a cat dying. we did all good ones like: aint no mountain high, the special two, lean on me, stand by me, beauty and the beast, hero, no one, if i aint got you, part of your world and somebody to love. there are about a biljillion more (as we were going for like 3 hours) but i cant really think of them :) hhahaha, about an hour into the music session, one of my uncles came in and started playing the guitar. so kak mel played a thousand miles on the piano, uncle rick echoed with the guitar and i ruined it all with my singing. it was waaaaay fun ! after a couple of hours passed, hanis and qistina took over singing, while me and ryan laid down on the couch behind them. he was playing DS and i was doing sudokus ( I DID SEVEN, WOOO ). i dont remember why, but i didnt stop laughing for the rest of the night. i dont even think anything was funny really.

at about half past midnight, momma came to the back of the house and collected ameerah, hames and I to go home. after screaming ten more minutes about three times, we gave in and left with her. upon entering the car, i looked up and saw STARS ! yea, we dont get that in coogee :( hahahha. we got home at like a little pass one. i listened to everyone in the house fall asleep while i played soliatire for another hour and a half, weeee.

bleeh, sorry sorry, i dont want this blog to be one of those recountingwhatididthroughoutthweek blogs, but i couldnt help myself today. i just loveee this time of year ! it wont happen often, PROMISE !

a funny little thing

2009-08-21T17:45:00.003+10:00

i love, love. i do.

not the needy type of love, nor the type of love that demands phone calls or texts throughout the whole day. not the sort that craves attention, for real love is not the slightest bit selfish. but the kind of love that happens a million times a day. the smile-y sort of love that makes a person giggle to themselves for no apparent reason. the love you find in the sky or in the smile of a stranger. i love the love that makes one float and glow. the love that some find in the waves and the sand, in lightning and thunder, or in the sun and the grass. i love when the people i love, find love. when they allow themselves to fall. whether it be for the sky, a star, or the moon. i love looking into a loved ones eyes, and finding love.

i just love, love. i do.

you hear her talking but don't hear what she said

2009-08-19T17:49:00.006+10:00

it's the little things that make me laugh,
today was definitely a good one (Y)

words of wisdom:

fatti xo

i wont fry your head, if you dont poach my heart

2009-08-18T16:08:00.006+10:00

my favourite little shits in the world :)
they are always in motion,
its basically impossible to get a still shot !

this is what our conversations are like:
rhys: tiqa, you know right, the day before yesterday yesterday, amelia had a princess tantrum ! she took all of she pillows and all of shes matress and put it on the floor ! ALL because she wanted chocolate. do yu believe that ?!
fatti/me: ohmygod ! Missy, yu know you don't get anything when yu cry.
amelia: YEAAA, but I want chocolayte and rhys was crazy that night !
rhys: NO I WASN'T
amelia: YES
*and then they start screaming on top of each other*

having them run around my house is priceless entertainment.

they never stop pulling faces

and climbing all over shit !

I love these two beyond belief.
yea, we're ruthless.

just one spark starts a fire

2009-08-16T16:50:00.004+10:00

lookie at what I bought for $9 !
I was out shopping w/ momma et ma petit soeur (who she spent $170 on! uuggh) and we came across this.
Momma hated it, but I still made her buy it for me - woooooo.
I wore it to the library and wanted to wear my bikini top under it to seem all cool, like I had just been to the beach,
but decided against it because that's just beyond lame, LOL.
I feel like i'm on safari when I wear it.
I love cheap finds :)

I am ALWAYS eating.
didn't even bother putting down the wrap while taking pictures.
it explains my size huh ? hahahah

current obsession: send it on - jonas brothers, demi lovato, selena gomez and MILEY CYRUS !
shuttup, I'm still a kid okay ? =P I love my miley and selena.

- fatti xo

where you lead, I will follow

2009-08-15T14:53:00.003+10:00

40 days. 40, 40, 40 days !

forty days till I say farewell to papa and embark on an adventure with the big sister ! forty days till I escape school and its horridness. forty days till I see my family that I've missed so much over the past year and a half. forty days till i begin my singaporebalikualalumper trip ! the 24th of september needs to hurry up. it needs to hurry so I can be at the singapore airlines gate ready to board my plane. it needs to hury, hurry, hurry up ! okay, so yes I can't count the nuber of times I've been to singapore, and I did live in kuala lumpur for a year while in boarding school, but I still get excited everytime I go :) usually when we go back home, it's w/ the entire clan, but this time, nay :) hahaha, this is the first holiday where it will just be me and ameerah. all my cousins think i'm gunna drive her absolutely mental in the onemonthandabit that we'll be spending together, and I have to say I agree completely, but she dosn't seem to think so for some odd reason. I guess she's gotten used to me after 15 years ? Both of us have never been to bali, so this should be sweeeet. We're heading off with my cousin, and when she satys in Bali for a little longer, we'll be off to Kuala Lumpur. Despite the grossness of the city, and the COMPLETE lack of delicious men, I must say that it is one of, if not my favourite place in the world - I definitely had my best year there, hands down.

As yu can see: I can't wait. I really, really, cant wait.

now now now now now

2009-08-14T18:48:00.006+10:00

it's no secret that I have a million things to say.
i am always talking.
so if yu gave me a talk show, i'd never let you down.
if yu gave me a talk show, i'd be happy forever.
if yu gave me a talk show, this is what I would say right now:

"Rachel McAdams, I cannot wait till yur movie comes out.
I cannot wait to sit and fall in love with yu all over again.
I cannot, cannot wait :)"

"Call me crazy,
but I adore what Miley wore to the TCA's :)
this is one disney star with balls"

"tiffany, or whoever yu really are,
thank you.
thank you for allowing me to dream"

and Lance,
go screw yurself.
I don't want to pick my subjects for next year,
I don't want to grow old !
I only have 9 units,
and if it were up to me, I'd fuck the other four.
but the ministry of education says no.
so someone pick me another four units ? kthanx :)

if I had a talk show, I'd make my viewers vote.
if i had a talk show, that is what I would say.

god, please give me a talk show.

don't stop till you get enough

2009-08-12T16:08:00.008+10:00

07082009 - fatti got busaaaaaay, LOL
clubbing @ 15 is good for the soul :) hahahha

My name was Tiqa. I was in year 12 at Sydney Girls, and wanted to study law in uni next year
... Well that's who everyone thought I was ;)

ugl - oh wait no, just my normal face ...

lalala - fatti x

baby get shakey

2009-08-09T16:55:00.011+10:00

We had mufti day on Friday, and despite my best efforts, I still went to school looking like crap :) I never want to not have uniform. I hate my closet.

location: Randwick Girls (are) High

ASIAN GHETTO QUEEN !

Midi trying to slyly stick out her tits ;)

Gracie has no idea what's going on ... ever !

Maroua putting some moves on the new maths teacher

Lizzle storming off cause of Lisa being a douhe :)

still angry ...

mat too ...

Leesal's even mad at herself ! LOL

hahah, nd now all is well.
lovee them ! ... sometimes

SATURDAY
My Saturday was awesome :)
not in the igotsosmashedidon'tevenrememberanythingbecausegettingdrunkissocool kinda way,
but because I spent it with my cousins, siblings, aunties etc.
It isn't all unusual since my weekends are usually always spent with them,
but Saturday was nice.
and my babies grew a year older !

Amelia - My most favourite-est person in the whole world :)
due to almost raising her, she possesses many of my mannerisms.
She's fiesty, talks back like a little bitch, is an absolute princess,
and of course, just like me, her laugh is OUT of this world.

Mia making her own cupcakes - without washing her hands ! hahahah

Rhysrhysrhys ! hhahaha, my first kidd - Amelia's older brother :)
Unfortunately for them, they have the same birthday !

TAG TEAM ! He loves his soccer
... and lego, and bioncle, and transfromers T.T

I'm guessing these next three photos of Amelia's toys were taken by ma petit soeur,
and despite their so outofplace-ness, I digg em ! hahah

Sophia - she makes me want kids NOW !

I lovelovelove this picture :)
You could say Amelia is almost as prissy as her sister Hannah !

Cannot get enough of: Stuck with each other - Akon feat. Shontelle
Akon annoys the crap out of me, but I tend to really like his songs ! hahaha

some people wait a lifetime

2009-08-06T22:51:00.007+10:00

hahahha, there definitely aren't many words to describe our relationship :)
I can, however, say that there's nothing else in the world like it !
... God I hate her =P

CHECK THIS SICK BITCH OUT :)

like nothing today

2009-08-04T20:53:00.004+10:00

the beauty she possessed alone, cannot be found in 100 of today's woman.
I long for just a fraction of her finesse

"What I've found does the most good is just to get into a taxi and go to Tiffany's. It calms me down right away, the quietness and the proud look of it; nothing very bad could happen to you there."

"I don't want to own anything until I know I've found the place where me and things belong together. I'm not quite sure where that is just yet. But I know what it's like" ... "It's like Tiffany's"

"If I could find a real-life place that made me feel like Tiffany's, then I'd buy some furniture and give the cat a name."

- Breakfast at Tiffany's; Truman Capote (1958)

warning

2009-08-02T11:45:00.003+10:00

Okay, so it's tough enough looking the way I do, but to make things more difficult, when I get happy, I magically turn uglier !

Picture this: I'm walking down a street already smiling (because I'm happy like that) and bump into someone who I haven't seen in a long while. I'm genuinely thrilled to be seeing them, and so my smile gets bigger. We stand there recounting whats been happening since we have last spoke, talking so fast it's all almost inaudible. Then, the crazy happens. They say something that changes everything. Something so funny, or touching, or adorable. Something that makes me so happy, I smile from ear to ear. Teeth and all.

So, if I ever bump into you, and smile widely enough for you to see my hideous vampiresque teeth, it's not because I despise being with you at that moment so much I want to bite you so the conversation can end. It's because I am happy.

Yes, my ugly face is the greatest unsaid compliment you can possibly receive from me.
If yu can see my teeth, it means I love you :)
hahahha, I just wanted to make that clear.

this is the face; look out for it.

as though I'm all that you can see

2009-08-01T21:11:00.003+10:00

I despise commitment.
I am headstrong.
I thrive on inconsistency,
But hate change when initiated by someone other than me.

Telling me you love me means you want something to change.
It means you want something more to grow.
It could be the difference between having me one day, and not knowing where I am the next.

I hate commitment.
I run at the first sign of it.
So don’t ever tell me you love me.
Not only will it trigger a change that I fear so much, but also cause me to misunderstand.

I mean, how can I? How can I understand how you could possibly love someone like me? Someone so selfish and self-absorbed. Someone who has more faults and flaws than ever thought possible. How? How can you love someone with imperfections beyond belief? How can you look at me and promise forever, when you don’t even know if I’ll still be here tomorrow?

How can you give someone who destroys everything they touch, the most fragile part of your being? How?

Don’t tell me you love me.
Right now, I’m just not worth it.

Maybe someday.
Someday.

hurry down the chimney tonight

2009-07-31T20:08:00.006+10:00

all I want for christmas is you,and you,

and you,

with love, fatti x

to master the unmasterable; an attempt to forget.

2009-07-28T22:48:00.004+10:00

I think about you always. Every morning when I open my eyes, it’s your grin I see. That grin and those big brown eyes. I forever find myself checking every portal that links my world to yours, hoping you’ve left a trace. Any trace. But the worst thing, is that the second my mind even begins to wander elsewhere, I stop to blink. I blink and see your stupid grin again.

This morning I woke up and forgot. I forgot to see your big brown eyes when I opened my own. I somehow forgot to check all the portals. I just forgot to look for a trace.

I loved the feeling of forgetting. It makes losing you hurt less. I wish I could always forget.

it's tough work being a princess

2009-07-28T16:34:00.018+10:00

my personal winter wonderland
fool.

proof that I really am the devil reincarnate.
seriously, look at that face !

the rentals and siblings.

this so isn't forced ! hahhaha

" HAHAHAHA ! you're breathing down my neck ! "

My aunty felt violated. It was hilarious.

half birthday cupcakes

my pamily :) wweeee

table centerpiece cum bonbonnieres ?

lights and snowflakes and table setting

amelia; we're butch ice princesses together

loooove them

I turned 15 and a half this month. To celebrate me, my auntie's and momma threw me a party. I love being a princess :)

a little some, some.

2009-07-24T19:00:00.006+10:00

People will tell you all different things about me. I guess they’re all true, but after knowing myself for 15 and a bit years, this is what I have gathered :)

I adore yellow, and believe that nothing should ever be done quietly. I love the noise that water makes when it swishes around in an iron, and the smell of a crisp winter morning makes me quiver. Old Audrey Hepburn movies are my favourite, and the amount of finesse she possessed never ceases to amaze me. I am terrified of commitment and will gladly run screaming at the first sign of it. Commitment, heights, rubber bands and lightning; okay fine, I’m a pussy. I’m extremely sentimental too, and really do appreciate the little things. I also apologise in advance for being me, as it does consist of things like these:

- I hate my toes. If someone put forward the option of toe liposuction and/or reconstruction, I would accept in a second :)
- I have a ridiculous obsession with the Greek goddess, Aphrodite. It has come to a point where I am seriously going to name my daughter after her. It's sick, I know.
- I love kebabs beyond belief. If a man told me he was willing to make me kebabs everyday for the rest of my life, I would marry him.
- My religion makes up for a lot of my mannerisms. I grew up in a relatively conservative Muslim household, but despite their best efforts, am nowhere near as religious as my parents. It does scare me though. I don’t really want my kids, or their kids to loose our religion.
- Despite my love for fashion and all things beautiful, my creativity level remains at zero. As a result of this, I become completely obsessed with anyone who possesses even the slightest artistic bone. As much as I want to do something based entirely on clothing, I have do doubt that I will fail.
- I believe telling someone you love them, is a million times harder than telling someone you don't. Because when you do, you're giving them a piece of yourself, knowing that they can break it at any given time or place, yet still being brave enough to do it anyway. This is why I also believe that you should never ever take advantage of someone who loves you.
- I love doing things for other people, and catering to their every need. This certain characteristic has driven me to my decision of wanting to be a hotel manager ... with 11 children. Yes, my momma does think I'm crazy.
- Despite my dream of running my own hotel, realistically I want to be a primary school teacher.
- I love it when Leesal sings. The one day that she gets up to do it in front of more people than just me, I will honestly feel I have accomplished something.
- I find that I am constantly surrounded by amazing people, who do amazing things for me. I seriously do believe that I am one of the luckiest people ever. I love whatever I did in a past life that made God decide that I deserve them :)
- When meeting the male species for the first time, I find that it's a lot easier to get along with them than girls. But overall, girls make better friends. I know a lot of people don't agree with that, but I really do. No one can love like a lady can.
- I am in love with Natalie Tran from the Community Channel. If you know her, please, help a brother out :)
- I love to read and to write. I don't do it often, but when I start, I wish I never had to stop.

Buy me flowers; I’ll honestly love you forever.
Stick around. I get way better than this.

you make me better

2009-07-22T12:36:00.001+10:00

Vera Wang, you created a scent that possesses the ability to change my mood within seconds. Because of you I am a better person in the mornings, and for that, I thank you.