to master the unmasterable; an attempt to forget.

I think about you always. Every morning when I open my eyes, it’s your grin I see. That grin and those big brown eyes. I forever find myself checking every portal that links my world to yours, hoping you’ve left a trace. Any trace. But the worst thing, is that the second my mind even begins to wander elsewhere, I stop to blink. I blink and see your stupid grin again.

This morning I woke up and forgot. I forgot to see your big brown eyes when I opened my own. I somehow forgot to check all the portals. I just forgot to look for a trace.

I loved the feeling of forgetting. It makes losing you hurt less. I wish I could always forget.